Match My Freak
This goes out to my HOTTIES who bring all the PERSONALITY!
Let me start off by saying I know I am a BITCH. I wouldn’t have it any other way. Big personalities can be hard to understand and not for everyone. People like me are usually praised by the gays, others with big personalities, or the very rare secure/confident individual. Sadly, my demographic typically includes the insecure straight man (lol).
I find fulfillment in my friendships, which tend to be the most rewarding relationships. I am loud, opinionated, passionate, and driven. Most of all, I am unapologetic about it. When I’m wrong, I own it—I'm only human. If I don’t know something, I openly admit it and proceed to “fuck around and find out.”
I’ve been living with a “fuck around and find out” mentality for as long as I can remember. Of course, never at the expense of others or important situations. Life, as I see it, is a series of “fuck around and find out” moments. If I don’t try, I will never know, and if I don’t make mistakes, I won’t improve.
You know that saying, “Insanity is doing the same thing over and over again but expecting different results”? I’m sure most of you have heard it in science class or English. It holds the same meaning as “fuck around and find out.”
My mother, a traditional Hispanic woman, always said something along the lines of “curiosity killed the cat,” which I can’t help but laugh at. The irony is that my mother was the first in her family to do many things: putting herself through higher education, being a single mother of two, and much more. She basically lived life on “fuck around and find out.”
I can’t help but think that knowing the shit my mother has lived through and I have survived, why fear anything? I know who I am and what I stand for, so I can’t help but be confident, happy, and unapologetically me. The only person I have to explain myself to is me. So, yeah, maybe that makes me a bitch.
I’ll tell you what, though: you will never question where I stand. You will never question my intentions or end goal. It may not be the same as yours. Judge me if you want, but know that I couldn’t give two fucks.
To all the people who find me or people like me insufferable: it’s okay, sweetheart, what you feel towards us is none of our business. To all the people like me, keep doing you. We can only control ourselves and our thoughts, so why not make all our energy positive and productive?
Till next time HOTTIES (mwah)
