Heartbreak & Healing

This is for HOTTIES always interigating about my love life.

This year I met the first man I ever truly loved. Now I understand that is a bold statement, but up until him it has been nothing but young puppy love. To be fair I’m only 20. So I guess I’ve now entered that point in life that I can emotionally and physically be deeper with someone.

Now as my friends know and make fun of me for, I notoriously date older men. Maybe its the daddy issues or abandonment. All jokes aside this was someone I did not see coming into my life at all. He’s significantly older and comes with baggage that deserves long time commitment. When he first reached out I really had second thoughts about even talking. Eventually I craved every interaction, the other things in the world seemed to fade away when together. I was happy to say the least.

This year I went through some hardships in both my personal and professional life. He was my biggest supporter and for once I met someone I actually wanted to spend time with. Despite my emotions or effort things didn’t work out.

Typically after a break up I spend time with friends and do things for self improvement. This time was different. As I am approaching the ripe age 21 I suppose it makes sense. It is said that every 7 years the human body goes through major changes, Maybe that’s why my old ways of coping and healing are no longer effective.

MAYBE I let myself be vulnerable; I had finally let someone close enough for me to care about them. Let myself fall in love because I wanted this to be it.

So now at this new stage in my life I look for new ways of healing. So if you ever feel lost its okay. Whether you are in your young 20’s, 30’s, 40’s, or 60’s; there is always more. I at times get overwhelmed because I feel like I should have everything figured out. However, life is forever changing so it is forever teaching us things.

A rough patch, a set back, a re-start are all opportunities for growth. Life is beautiful and has so much to offer. Never forget your worth but always strive to improve.

I will update you nosy HOTTIES on my healing sources at the end of this year.

Till next time HOTTIES (mwah)